As I am preparing to go to
the States in a few days, I am feeling overwhelmed already. Most
people probably assume that when missionaries return to their home
country, either on a short visit or a furlough, that it is an
much-anticipated time. And it is, kinda. I very much anticipate
seeing my family and friends, worshiping in my sending church (HPC),
and eating all the yummy foods that I've missed (sushi, Zaxby's!!)
but there is a part of me that has to gear up for what lies ahead.
I have written this blog
so you can hopefully understand your missionary (whether it's me or
not) more and be sensitive to the struggles that they might be
feeling when they return. I hope it doesn't come across as whiny or
ungrateful but these are the real feelings that we experience.
*We have two homes and we
don't feel as if we belong in either
We have our first home and
now we have our current home, where we are serving. Living as a
foreigner in a new country is hard. As much as you learn the
culture, learn the language, even marry a local (as I did) you still
feel as if you don't belong at times. You are always an outsider,
you always stand out. But when we go back to our first home, we
realize we really don't belong there either. Our hearts are not
there because we have been called to a new place. Nothing stays the
same in the first country so it's easy to feel left-out or
left-behind when going back to visit.
*Culture of excess
Most missionaries come
from first-world countries that thrive in excess. It is really hard
to return to these cultures and not be overwhelmed or frustrated by
it. So often people tell us that they would love to help our
ministry but they don't have extra money so it's hard to see the
excessive lifestyle (by our definition) that they live that is pretty
mainstream in the States.
*Finances
When we return to our
first homes it is really hard to accomplish all that we need to
because we don't have the money to do it. We live so minimally on
the mission field because we hate asking for money and most people
only donate to the ministry-not to the missionary families-so when we
return we don't have any money. But we still have things like our
health, electronic devices, and government paperwork that require
money to fix or process (I'm already quite stressed about my list of
items on this to-do list that I have to attend to!).
Plus, we need to get
resources for the ministry and needed supplies for our family, but
again we don't have money. Most people only think that they should
donate to the ministry but the reality is, missionary families need
money all year to live in these countries. Find out how your
missionary wants you to give to the family-because it's usually not
the same avenue as donating to the ministry itself.
*We hate asking for money
Let's be honest. Out of
sight, out of mind is a true statement for missionaries. The people
in their first home tend to forget about them over time and the
support for the ministry or family falls off so when we go back to
our first home, we are forced to fund raise. We hate fund raising.
We hate asking for money and we know God provides but very rarely
does He provide by random people deciding to write big checks,
usually He provides through us asking.
*Life goes on for everyone
else
Again, out of sight, out
of mind applies here. We go back to our first homes wanting to
connect with everyone and not sit at home by ourselves but the
reality is people are busy and most don't make time for visiting
missionaries. Just like we don't like asking for money, we don't
like asking people to hang out with us. For one, we feel as if we
are nagging but also we feel like if people wanted to connect with
us, they would ask so if they haven't that must mean they don't want
to. But the other problem is time. If people do want to hang out
it's usually on weeknights because of their work schedules but it
becomes a problem when people only want to connect on weeknights.
Weeknights and weekends are usually when we spend time with our
families. Being able to meet for breakfast or lunch during the week
is the optimal time but again, most people work during the day so
it's a struggle.
*It's hard for us to hear
about your family vacations and trips
We would love to go on
family vacations, have weekends with our spouse, have weekends of
spiritual refreshment, take our kids on trips but we can't so
sometimes it's hard for us to hear about all the trips you take.
Yes, we should work on our own jealousy issues but it's reality.
So how can you help? Talk
to your visiting missionaries, give them words of encouragement, let
them know you are praying for them, invite them for lunch. Bless
them with gift cards to local stores or restaurants (but ask them
what they prefer) or bless them with cash so they can go to the
doctor and get their electronics fixed. Support their ministry. But
most importantly, love on them.